"Self-Betrayal"
Today I started thinking about this as it relates to exercise. It's true that nobody can exercise for you. You have to get yourself to your workout mat or out the door to your chosen fitness activity. This has been really difficult for me lately. Just haven't wanted to. I could blame no motivation/inspiration. But I think where I have betrayed myself is my complete loss of commitment to a healthy lifestyle that made me happy.
- An act contrary to what I feel I should do for another is called an act of "self-betrayal."
- When I betray myself, I begin to see the world in a way that justifies my self-betrayal.
Yesterday I read a Washington Post article called "Desk jobs can be killers, literally." Today I went out and bought a watch/pedometer on my lunch break. I set a goal to walk 5,000 steps today since I was starting out midday. I added more walking to my day at work, not entirely intentionally since I did really have to go see people on other floors of my building. But I started to really want to make sure I was working toward this goal throughout the day. And it was fun. So fun that I also decided to go to a yoga class, and grocery shopping to take my lunch to work tomorrow.
I recognize that now that I've had this major breakthrough, I may still not want to get up in the morning for my workout. But I also know what a healthy lifestyle means to me: life, health, and happiness. And it's better to just get up for my workout, because I'm a nicer person to be around when I do.
In college, I used to think everything was better with Ben and Jerry's Phish Food. Now I think everything is better when I'm getting my workouts done.
And I got my goal of 5,000 steps today. I actually got 6,200 steps.
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